Friends, are any of you struggling? Battling with the ever present to do list parked within the walls of your mind? Determined to at least occasionally look as if you have it all together?
But despite your best efforts, you often come away with feelings of failure in one or more areas of your life.
Perhaps you visualize yourself as a master juggler, tossing balls into the air, a few at a time, until they all move in rhythm. All is going well. You are perfectly balanced, never dropping a ball. Never growing tired. Never questioning your ability to maintain such perfection.
Yet your reality is quite different.
Keeping those balls hovering mid-air has become a daunting task. You can no longer sustain this pace. One ball drops, and then another. And another. Until finally you realize they are all scattered. Some only slightly out of reach. Others appearing hopelessly lost.
You are pushed into a state of exhaustion, defeat, and shame. Deep feelings of inadequacy begin to surface. You realize you are no longer a master of anything.
Oh sisters, can any of you relate?
This has been true of me at differing stages in my life, and I will likely experience it again at some point. Thankfully, I’ve developed a dab of insight through the years.
I’ve discovered it’s alright to purposely loosen my grip on a few of those balls. And it’s actually wise for me to use caution before adding another, regardless of how shimmery or glitzy this new ball may seem.
I’ve come to understand that simply because it’s good doesn’t mean it’s the right fit for me.
I’m learning to seek God more often -and more quickly- as I strive to do what it is He has called me to do, and refrain from doing those tasks He has set aside for others.
And while I am far from having it all figured out, I’ve found the closer I lean in to Him, the more clearly I recognize which balls are mine to juggle, and which are not.
My prayer for you, sweet friends, is that you will glance intently at what it is that keeps you so busy, so distracted, and so weary.
Some of these, no doubt, are yours to keep. But could it be you’re also juggling some things that are not yours to juggle?
Perhaps it’s time to rediscover -or discover for the very first time- what God is asking of you.
Perhaps it’s time to make adjustments. To release a few of those balls, passing them on to their rightful owners, freeing up your hands a bit.
Perhaps it’s time to add to the mix those things you know you should be doing. Those things which give your life purpose and meaning. Those things which will undoubtedly make a difference in someone else’s life.
Those are the things we should be juggling. Perhaps, sisters, it’s time to re-think our juggle.